You’re not being punished, you know that right?

May 20th,2025

Why Is This Happening To Me ?!

Hearing “It’s happening for you and not to you is “ the equivalent of hearing it’s going to be ok, although you see a fire that won’t stop.

You’ve been in kahoots with previous timelines for so long that you didn’t even notice you were building on a shaky foundation. Every missed payment, every angle that doesn’t work, every tear getting you closer to hopelessness—is all the tightening a of events before the everything snaps.

Think of it like a sewing machine.

You have your thread right? But your tension is too tight. You keep trying to sew thinking you know more than the machine but then the thread snaps . In. Half. Right in the middle of a project you thought you were gliding through.

Gotta start all over huh?

That’s exactly how it is. All these moments are meant to stop you so that you can evaluate where you are and where you want to be.

Comfort is like the thief of being in a more aligned timeline.

If you refuse to move past your comfort zone then divine intervention will have to step in like a manager at a department store. It’s never your fault and you didn’t do anything wrong. At the end of the day your value is meant to be amplified not stifled by low hanging fruits. You’re being pushed into new ways of going about things so that you don’t resort to the old ways that are no longer working. In my sacred pause I can’t tell you how upset I was—wondering why me ? And what I did to deserve this. Bills started getting bigger, money was getting smaller and my mental state was being tested for weakness. All those doors that once opened were now hard to unlock. It was like no matter what key I used, I wasn’t getting in. If this was a movie plot then it’ll be a scene where I’m in the rain and it’s just my luck that I’m locked out of a hotel. (True story by the way.)

That’s what a sacred pause feels like .

When Will Things Get Better For Me?

Ah, the golden question.

As humans we can’t help but wondering when fortune will start favoring us because there’s nothing better than knowing there’s a semblance of luck waiting to strike.

We’re not on linear timelines so this question can get sticky very fast. It invites an energy of instant gratification from surface level attempts. It’s like asking if you’ll win the lottery although that shit is like a game of probabilities. You never know!

All those tarot readings that gave you The Wheel of Fortune and The Star ,all the three hour mantra videos on YouTube guaranteed to change your life in 24 hours? They all do not determine when things get better for you. The tides will begin to shift once you accept that the old paths are no longer meant to be walked down. You’ve been swimming in the shallow waters for so long , content that your feet can touch the floor that you never considered that maybe— you know how to swim in the deeper parts. 

Although it’s a journey of walking on a tightrope, you can’t let fear be your teacher. With everything upside down, I was getting scared. Everyday that I asked when it would get better was a day I was met with dreading disappointment when things didn’t work how I expected it to. I had such a traditional  vision of how things would turn out that when I lost my grip on events, it was a death to my ego. It’s safe to say that life was like trying to do a sleek ponytail only for the band to snap and now you want to cry because you’re outta gel . You eventually decide to wear a bandanna because “Bad hair day” right? There will be some bad hair days but you eventually get the ponytail right on the 12th time. There’s no rubric or guidebook of when things will get better because you’re meant to walk down your own path. Hell if there was a guidebook, then we’d all snatch it up like free samples at Costco. This would also mean we’d be on the same timelines which isn’t possible. Sure there will be some people with a similar story to yours but it is never the same.

Sometimes this period requires you to walk alone— even if you’re walking on shards of glass and hot gravel.

What You Can Do Now Instead (Cue Your Tears Babe)

Showing up for yourself is what thing you can do.

Don’t show up for results , don’t show up for expectations , just yourself .

We’re so conditioned to only believe in the unknown when we have all the answers—but what happens when we don’t? The days might be tense and you’re on the verge of another breakdown but you will survive this. I remember when I had $3 to my name. Of course that’s when my car decided to break down (overheating sucks !) and my debt was now being sent to a collection agency. No income brought a lot of stress .

I wanted to stay in bed and be upset but I needed to show up for myself . I needed to still smile when I wanted to scream and still dance when I wanted to sulk.

Your sacred pause is not your final chapter. It is only the prologue before your actual story begins . You are not being punished but protected from what no longer serves you. When life starts feeling like trying to eat soup with a fork, then sip straight from the bowl. Your sacred pause is intentional and divinely orchestrated. 

No rulebook required🌸

Who said a sacred pause couldn’t be on a balcony watching the sunset?